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I am at home in Sohar this weekend. I feel that time has passed so fast and that life has been moving on without waiting for nobody, I noticed the white hair on my father’s head and deep wrinkles around my mother’s eyes, I don’t think that I have ever really noticed any of these before.
My elder brother has two kids, and it feels as if they have been around forever, already, now. I can still remember the time when we used to touch with our hands and fingers the little plants in the muddy garden of the house, the times when we used to run around the house in circles playing in the afternoon, the times we spent watching cartoons on tv or playing video games together for crazy long hours all day long.
I realised today that I barely have any memories of an older me at home. I have been in fact away from here for way too long.
At times, I think that life is a cycle, that everything we experience is the a repetition of some event that happened in the past or some new version of it at least, the way my brothers got married, the way my nephews are growing up, repetitive events of eid, holidays, and other events. I can’t remember what I did last eid, because it was the same as the one before, and just exactly the identical as the one before it.
But at other times, I feel that I am living my own unique adventure that I know nobody else lived before. I feel that sky is truly the limit and that I have so many options and so many different paths that I can take. I have no idea about what I will be in ten years and I find that amazing because I could be doing anything. I don’t consider myself life and career options limited to the degree that I hold, the place that I am currently being employed at, the place that I was born in, or the place that I live in.
I do not really have an idol to look up to and I do not have anybody to follow the steps of.
Recently, I met those people who are courageous, different, and extraordinary and whom choices of life and work truly inspire me. I find it amazing how randomly you can meet someone that can change your life. It makes me believe that God somehow really exists and that there is, in fact, destiny.
I feel like a character from a Douglas Coupland novel.
